Caterpillars completely digest themselves during transformation.

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Butterflies are a beautiful symbol of life, endurance, change, and hope. Generally, I see a butterfly, and I think about how amazing, good, and beautiful life is...

But that is only half the story!

It is so easy to look at how fantastic life is for a butterfly that we forget to see the pain, hard work, and transformation that had to occur for this to even happen.

So true to life right? We see how amazing someone else's life is, and we easily fall into the trap wishing we had it so good, but that is only the tip of the iceberg. We probably didn't witness the painful transformation it took for this person to make it to that place.


Transformation is messy, painful, and uncomfortable. Caterpillars completely disintegrate inside the chrysalis, and if you were to cut their cocoon open at the very right time, you would see nothing but caterpillar soup!

Complete disintegration of self is what caterpillars do to transform into a butterfly. That is what is required for total transformation.

If you want different results, you have to change everything. Your thoughts, your actions, and your attitude.

I know that shit is hard. It’s painful, uncomfortable and it feels like it will never end. I know because I have been there.

I only knew one way of life. I was absolutely sick of everything about my life, but I was terrified to change. The fear of the unknown kept me stuck in a cycle of self-destruction.

I didn't want to be a caterpillar anymore, but I was scared of what people would say about me if I made the transition into a butterfly.

Everyone I knew was a caterpillar. My perception of life was a ground view, and I couldn't imagine how much would change if I could see the world from up high as I was flying around.

How in the world could I get from here to there??

I tried all of the things:

Different modalities of therapy


Christian churches

Buddhist temples

New Age churches

Spiritualist chapels


Tarot Readings

Mediumship Readings


Nothing filled the void in my chest.

I was looking for a way to transform that would allow me to avoid the cocoon. I didn't want to be alone, and I didn't want to do the inner work.

No one and nothing, outside of me could make this transformation possible. I had to do it for myself.

If you feel as I once did, I will let you in on a secret. Being caterpillar soup isn't as scary as I thought it was going to be.

If I had waited until I felt like doing it, I would still be a caterpillar. I just woke up one day and took action. Every single day I did the things I didn't want to do.

And one day I woke up and realized that avoiding prayer, meditation, my gifts, and everything that makes me my authentic self was actually much more difficult than just stepping into my birthright to be a butterfly.

Transformation completely disintegrated the old me, and sure... it was uncomfortable, awkward, and a little scary, but I can promise you that it was totally worth it.

Surrender to the process, and please please please don't quit before the miracle. You won't be caterpillar soup for as long as your brain tells you that it lasts. It's much shorter, I promise.

You have to have faith that one day you’ll wake up a butterfly and wonder why you resisted for so long.

It’s okay if your inner caterpillar is freaking the fuck out. That just means you’re still alive, feeling all of the emotions, and fighting to survive.

Sit her down.

Tell her you love her.

Tell her that her feelings are valid.

And tell her that one day you won’t feel this way anymore.

Then breathe and surrender.

Take it one day at a time.

The transformation will make space for you to become a beautiful butterfly with new purpose, and new perspectives.

Just surrender and keep the faith.